Baby Sex Guess

I'm just going to go ahead and throw out that I hoping for another girl. There. I know some people think it's wrong to want one sex over the other, but I just can't help it so I'm being honest about it. I would LOVE a boy of course! I wanted a little boy so bad the first go around, but God knows best and blessed me with me little Victoria. Well, now I feel very comfortable with a girl, and I have a girl wardrobe, and I think Victoria would prefer a little sister. When asked if she wanted a brother or sister she used to say which ever you said last....so....."Do you want a brother or a sister?"....Sister! "you want a sister or a brother?".....Brother! Ok.....well now the answer is just no! So then I say "Do you want a sister?" and I sill just get "no!" Great. Oh well, you're getting one or the other. LOL!

I have been doing all those test where you pee on baking soda (girl), the ring test (girl), checked the chinese calendar (boy) and well, all I can say is nothing is as definitive as an ultrasound. My next ultrasound will *probably* be July 8. My next appt. is June 10th and 4 wks. after that puts me at July 8. I was able to talk myself into that I really thought it was a girl, but really.....I think it's a boy and here's why........

It's already causing trouble (that little bleeding issue at the beginning). Other than that, this pregnancy is so very different. Last time I HATED strawberries and pickles (both things I had loved my whole life), but this time I can't get enough!!! The pickles thing has snuck up on me, but I knew I was craving pickles when I grabbed 3 before going to bed last night. Last time I went through a little phase where I craved meat and cheeses. I would leave work to go grab all kinds of meats....slim jims, jerky, etc. Well, I hate it now. I sometimes....rarely....eat meat. I can handle hot dogs for the most part but spaghetti and hamburgers are out! I did have a hamburger at a cookout 2 days ago and it was pretty yum...but for the most part just the thought of meat makes me want to barf. I wasn't too gosh awful sick with Victoria, but this time around I was very nauseous the first 11 wks. and I STILL get bouts of it late at night.

So there's my guess. I think it's a boy. Any other guessers? Yeah right....I'm the only one who reads the blog! LOL! I have a long time to wait and I'm trying to be patient, but jeez.....just over 5 wks. is a LONG time. I will be 19 wks. 5 days when I get to find out and it will be the day before we go on vacay! Vacay doesn't feel too far away though....maybe I'll make it.....maybe.

I LOVE Summer Saturdays!!

Market Square pretty much rocks! I need to get better at getting around down there and find the cheapest parking. Today was Farmers Market and the Biscuit Festival so I figured I'd take my little biscuit lover down there. We saw a little of Farmers Market, but not much since that wasn't our focus today (maybe next weekend). Let me just say is was CRAZY!!! I mean seriously insane. I wasn't particularly thrilled about the $6 parking, but I have to park and didn't feel like driving around. Then we went to the festival and I figured we'd eat before we started trying to push our way through the insane crowd to buy our ticket (not bad at $5 for 5 samples)and start "judging." Hardees had a little tent set up on the end so I got us some from there and we sat down and ate. After buying those biscuits I saw a MUCH better little buffet set up, but I think that was $10/person so I'm actually kind of glad we didn't go that route. My little lady was already loving it:)

We then fought the crowds, which she wasn't digging anywhere near as much as the eating. It too us FOR.EVER. to get the tickets and then the lines.....well....there weren't any. It was every man for himself. Dive in and see if you could get one. I mean it was stressful at best since little one wouldn't let me hold her and I was scared to death she was going to get trampled. I'm glad I didn't take her stroller though because I saw people with stroller....they were just standing still in throngs of people. This pic doesn't do the crowds justice. This was the easy to walk in part. I wish I could have taken photos of all our samples, but that was impossible. Heck....I just wish I knew how to work a camera better. Oh well.

Then, since we were close, and I had thought to pack a swimsuit in case (there seems to be water to play in EVERYWHERE in the summer) we went and played at the fountains at the Worlds Fair Grounds. There is an AWESOME wooden playground near there called Fort Kid and I had heard it was torn down, but when I drove by I saw it still there so we parked there prepared to play. It was closed:( This makes me all kinds of sad since I remembering playing on this when it was new when I was little. It rocks my world. Anywho....off to the fountains we went. I don't think Victoria had any fun there at all;)

That pics a little big....I'm still trying to figure the whole blogging thing out. I like the size, I just don't like the layout of the page...or the font...or anything. Any pointers? Anyway....moving on. Then, we went to the playground right next to the fountains and I must say my little girl is FEARLESS! She just goes and goes and goes. She even fell while running, fell on her knees and then her face. Ouch! She didn't care. There were no marks so I'm guessing the padding there is pretty kick ass. It hard to see her in these, but well, I'm not good with the camera. I am really good at just watching with a HUGE smile on my face. I just pray to God I always remember these moments.

Today has rocked so far! Little girl just woke up and I think there is some more playground and splash pad action in our near future, as in right after snack. I am so excited to make this a great summer for Victoria! Most Fridays my Mom keeps Victoria over night (she thinks she has partial custody and apparently so does Victoria) and so this was a nice change. I got to wake up and make today all about Victoria. We are going to be doing this A LOT this summer since it's the last summer she has to herself. Next summer will rock too, just in a different way:)

13 Weeks:)

Today I am 13 weeks and I am definitely getting bigger. I don't feel as big as I look so I really don't like seeing pictures of myself right now. I'm at that stage where you just look chunky and not really pregnant. I feel like a new woman since I no longer have to take that horrible hormone. It's right at that time I should be feeling better anyway so I'm not sure it's all the meds fault, but I'm not so dizzy, I lost 2 lbs., my acne is starting to go away, and I just feel better all around. I am definitely getting my energy back that is for sure! I was even able to make supper the other night:) I still can't make a lot of things though because raw meat makes me want to puke. Cravings right now are Taco Bell, strawberries, nuts, and chocolate lava cake. I'm not so sure about a lot of aversions other than I just hate to see or be near raw meat. I remembered the big craving I had with Victoria the other day and it was sunflower seeds. I mean I ate those things like they were going out of style. I was really starting to worry about my sodium intake. Anywho.......here I am at 13 wks and 149.5 lbs.

And here's the comparison....

I think I'm at a little different angle, but I think I'm definitely bigger this go around. Oh....and yes I'm wearing a just a bra for a top in this pic, but it covers just as much as a bikini top IMO (if it offends you I'm sorry).

P.S. I LOVE getting these emails every Sunday:)

Baby's now the size of a peach!
Your fetus is forming teeth and vocal cords...savor this, their nonfunctional phase. Baby is approaching normal proportions, with his head now only one third the size of his body. And intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to baby's tummy -- much more convenient.

All I can be is me

Everyone has personality flaws right?

I know I do. I can't help it. It has been brought to my attention on more than one occasion by more than one person that I'm not very sensitive to others, and I don't show that I care very well. I tend to come across a little bitchy and standoffish. The thing is I am honestly treating others how I would like to be treated. I don't ask to fix plates for people because I like to make my own, I don't ask how people are feeling because I don't like to be asked, I'm not very affectionate because for the most part I just don't like to be touched. I mean I can handle a hug, but my poor mother wants to rub my belly and talk to it and I try to let her because it's important to her, but it drives me crazy and sometimes I just can't handle it. I don't like to talk about my feelings to more than like 2-4 people in the world (hubs, besties, and Mom). I can blame some of this on having some pretty craptastic things happen to me that has just hardened me. I just tend to stay guarded without even knowing it. For the most part though it's just who I am. My Mom says even as a child I didn't like to be held, cuddled, touched, etc. It's just me and all I can be is me. I'm brash, I'm fairly blunt, I have no tact, etc. I can promise you though that I am real and you never have to guess what I'm thinking because I WILL tell you.


Somehow God saw fit to give me the most affectionate child I have ever met. I mean my little kiddo wants to give me hugs and kisses all day (and everyone else near her). She loves to be held and wants to be cuddled to sleep. I'm so happy He gave me such a wonderful and caring child because believe it or not she has helped me be a little more caring. Family has always meant a lot to me, but more so now. I try to attend all family functions I am aware of and try to plan some of my own. She might just break me yet:)

The thing is I think I'm a-okay! I mean.....I like me:) It's hard for me when people can't understand that I am just who I am, and while some things I do come across odd (or whatever else) to them I'm not TRYING to be mean. I'm not mad. I'm not hurt. It doesn't mean I don't like you. I'm not anything. I'm just being me.

12 weeks and no more Prometrium!!!

I am 12 weeks tomorrow and it's been a pretty good week! I was told I could stop taking the Prometrium at 12 weeks, but I stopped a week early. I decided to go ahead and do that because I was always within normal range it was just low normal. Anywho....I have felt soooooo much better. I am still pretty dang nauseous (at night), but for the most part I am finally having more of a normal pregnancy:) I even lost a pound. LOL! That would be because that stupid hormone pill made me crazy bloated and retain more water. I am all around happier, less tired, less nauseous, less pimply, and less mean (which the hubs is pretty happy about). I even went and got my hair done today and I LOVES it!!!! I have not had my hair cut since Aug. Yes, you read that right....9 long months ago. I've been trying to grow my hair out from the marvelous inverted bob I had to a longer do. I like to have long hair to offset the chubby face and big round belly. LOL! I'm still growing it out, but it has some shape AND super cute highlights!!!

YAY!!!

So today is a 2 post day, but without an u/s picture:( I am definitely sad about this as I didn't really see the baby jumping around either. The doc said he saw the arms and legs and that it was moving around, but he was mainly looking at the bleed so he wasn't all that concerned about that baby. I know that sounds odd, but he checked for the heartbeat (160) and then moved on. He said it looks mostly healed and that I don't have to come back in for 5 weeks!!!!! I am so excited!!! I know most preggo ladies would love to have appts. (especially with u/s) all the time, but when you watch children for a living it is a pain in the rear going to the docs that much. So, my next appt. is on June 10 and it will not involve an u/s. It will be a regular appt. It feels so great being a normal pregnant lady again:)

Now, I'm going to do what I swore I would not and complain. V was such an easy pregnancy. I was nauseous, but as long as I ate snacks regularly I didn't get sick. I didn't have a problem with weight gain. I went to the gym regularly after work and worked out. When I was tired I went to sleep. When they tell you your second pregnancy is different....they aren't kidding. I am nauseous all day every day and eating just makes it worse. Dry heaving over my kitchen sink is becoming regular. Since I couldn't really work out and I am on a a hormone med. I have gained weight easier and faster. I have acne worse than any teenager I know. It's really disgusting. This is TMI, but it is like all over my back and it totally grosses me out. I mean it's not huge pus filled bumps, but just tiny little bumps which is actually more disgusting to me because clusters gross me out. My head hurts all time and I am always dizzy. It was easy to deal with all of this at first, but now after several weeks it's getting harder and worse and no signs of easing up. I am starting to whine and complain. I can't just go to sleep when I want since I already have one kiddo and I'm so exhausted after watching kiddos all day I don't want to work out. I am hoping that in the next 2-3 weeks things really start looking up. So there's my complaining. I hate that I do it, but it really is just getting difficult, but at least the little one is still in there and developing well:)

Names and Nurseries

Today is probably going to be a 2 post day:) I should save my names and nurseries post for another time when I am not feeling up to blogging so much, but I can't help myself. I am very type A personality and have to always have a plan in place. I really hate not knowing about plans a week or more in advance for example. Well, when it comes to babies it is no different. I have to have a name picked out for a boy or a girl as long as nursery plans. It's kind of surprising to me we have finally decided on names since it wasn't very long ago I was complaining about how to difficult it was to pick names. Anyway.....if it's a girl, her name will be Emily Elizabeth and her room will be lavender. We'll do wainscoting partially up the walls and then paint the rest of the wall some sort of lavender color. I'm going to make an overstuffed bumper with a lavender damask fabric and an oversized crib skirt in lavender silk dupioni. So the pics below are the fabrics and then one is an example of the wainscoting (I am not doing that large of a chair rail at the top) and pic of how I want the skirt to look....maybe puddling on the floor a little more;)

Now....if it is a boy he will be Fisher Lee and his room will be a nautical theme. I will go with the same wainscoting, but we'll do a nautical rope along the top...maybe in lieu of a chair rail, but probably in addition to. I will do navy for the the walls and paint the changing table and, probably crib, red. I am going to go with this crib skirt and bumper, lighting, and I LOVE this compass for the ceiling (that's kinda very hopeful thinking).

I'm just going to leave that pic cut off a little because it's already pretty small. I am also drooling over this as a mural:)

So, there ya go! My plans. My plans don't really ever turn out how I plan them, but I do have one in place at least.

10 weeks:)

So, I'm a little late in posting the promised side by side.....my belly photographer (the hubs) has the flu. I took this pic by myself so it's not the best. I will for sure have a better comparison in 3 wks. I knew I was getting bigger faster, but HOLY COW!!! I'm already a whale! I mean it's craziness!!!!

I am breaking out like crazy which is not the funnest, but the dizziness has almost disappeared. I don't feel so nasty and gross so much anymore. The nausea is still there, but most the time that is not as bad either. I am starting to smell EVERYTHING so I haven't replaced the air freshners in the house yet. I am kinda worried I'll puke if I do. I'm not quite so tired, but I do still have days where it gets rough. So, weight is 149:-( Hopefully it'll stay there for another 2 weeks. I'm starving as I write this so not so sure that will happen. It goes back and forth a lot up to 151....EEK! but most days it is 149.